I'm told all the time life ant fair. I'm saying look how we talk to each other. Treat each other. Look how goverments run there people. How can I help? Should I care? Look I have found out this much if you let someone or something control you it will. There are a lot of energy vampires out there. People, places, things. Until the power over me is broken. Ill never Take back the power for myself. Then o yes it can be someone else's right there ready and well funded to take control.
   I can't reap unless i sow. That's right what ill reap will be what I have sowed. Its my hope to give something good to this world. If you wish to say its broken because of
some one other than you blame ME.
   I'll take that power thanks.

Action After Emotion

   I go through emotional battles to make it out to the other side of any crises. Be it a death,a break up. Unexpected things. Things I have to feel as a person. I can't say anything adout how much of these emotions or how long, they're to be felt. I can say if they get in the way off me just moving on I need help. Talking is the best way known to man/woman. There is something about saying the words out loud.
Not so the other person can hear it more than I will.
  I'll go to a the Lord in prayer. I'll go to a church to see some. Call a friend. I have found out saying the words out loud helps. It helps the most if its to the person/s that's connected with the emotion's I'm having. There is a higher power a force a spirit a God. That pulls my very will in the path of making thing right. Matthew 5:7 comes to me once I take the first step to make things right. Its Humility.

attitude for the good

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   I have seen over the past few month's, a lot of thing about myself. That if I was not in drug court would have put me at a place that life would be full of sadness, shame, and darkness all around me. It may have become all I had.
   In a day by day walk. Fallowing instution doing the right thing. Life is much nicer. I don't go and do everything I think I should or wish to do. That's just the thing that put me in Drug Court.
   I don't have longer in Drug Court. Its not asking to much of me. I call every day, people that love me, ask me to do that. People that need me to do something, would ask me to do  that. Everyone that would do that just thinks he'll show up, not lie, be sober. So I'll say this being Obedient is one of the +Beatitudes+. Progress of myself depends on my attitude.
  Jesus sead "blessed are the pure  in heart, thay will see God." Matthew 5:8. I desire to live under the guidance of Gods Holy Spirit - day by day.

the only thing I know

 Its going to be cold. The sun is out.  +Baldwin County Drug Court Color Code  testing+ is going on today. We all have to call to know if its our color. There are some things we just know right. You can tell us once and we know. We can see for ourselves.
 What was it that toke me so long and so much hard ship, to see that no body is going to look out for me as good as a Higher Power. Others have helped me and I thank you so much I'll never be able to make good on it, to all of you" thankyou".
 Somewhere I became so self-centered.I stopped thinking, I stop looking forward, where I wanted to be ten ,twenty years down the road.
 The right attitudes, I have not had every time, all the time. There's only a short part of that road of Life to go now. I have a shorter walk to make. So I must take slower step's, shorter step's and this way I can take a longer look at where I'm going to be ,once I get there.
 The only thing I do know, is if I don't make the right steps now. I'm not going to like the ones I'm told to take by a power grater then myself. Jesus tells me in Matthew 5:5  "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." I believe Jesus Christ can and will create in me a new way of life.

dont be slow

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     We all have done some things we should never had even thought about doing.
      As I see now you can't unring that bell. My hope to stay clean at first was to stay out of trouble. I understand my flaws more because of a long hard look at myself. I hope someone understands this. Just because I had stopef drinking but not changing my attitudes about the people, place's, and things. I had not fixed the things that stopped me from having a nicer life, better friends, more stable jobs, a relationship with a bit more love.
       The Bible tells us in proverbs 6:6. Consider the ant...
     

The Beatitudes Matt. 5

We can learn:
   .To examine our hearts
   .To be renewed in our minds
   .To live the spiritual life by
    Putting off the old man and
    putting on the new, spiritual
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A higher power than (my"self")

Thinking sometimes the same old way, just don't do it any more. Time and time again I've had to start over. It was the drinking you know doing the same thing over and over expecting different results. That was me drunk. Things would get nicer ,sober. I would yep be drunk again things would go bad. Like all drunks the insanity continued. Back and forth it was.
  So one day I, said to myself, "Self you need to take some steps to get out of this place you have put me."
   So not thinking God would know who was taking His time up or even care about poor old pitiful self. I had a Uncle that had tried over and over for me to,"Let go and let God". He would say.
   Getting him to pray for me was that first step. Life has not been sweet and happy all the time.
   Out of the help of a person stronger than " myself" I found God  and through Him all things are posable.
    Read matthew 5:3 its the start of a wonderful friendship and a grate attitude.