Remembering the old times are good. Just stay away from the war story's. You don't have to do something that you can't handle. If you have to find a church thats open. A meeting that going on. A person that you can talk to. Walk in the wood,beside the river or creek or start putting the filling of your mind down on paper, could help another. Go work at a food bank.there is 50,000 other thing to do but (use) so don't. Have a grate Christmas. Matthew 5 : 6 (obedient) and read Titus3:3-8 we have all been there and God did save us we just need to stop fighting the process of being saved.