I'm not in over my head yet. I've never been to afraid to play along. In the dark. Take on something bigger than myself. Pull the short straw.
  What type of person does this make me. (A very compulsive one)
Never using the God given brain I had. I began doing all the things around me with extreme effort. I had to do more, had to be the fastest, smartest, and out of that became a good me. Only I did not bring control with it. With out being able to control my ability life became self-centered, unmanageable the addictive personality now had control, not ME. THE THING, now would do the controlling. As it tells us in Titus 3:3 its what I had become. Because of that personality God the Father, never allowing his children to act this way put things in place to bring me back to Him. Matthew 5 teaches us humility, repentants, becoming submissive, Honisty, mercifulness, obedience, Reconciliation, faith, perseverance, being a loving servant. The 10 attitudes of victorious living. Let this minds be in you... Philippians 2:5. You can study + TheMostExcellentWay.otg + your self. Or (gmail) me for prayer requests. G+ can work to.