HUMILITY
  MATTHEW 5:3 Jesus said: " Blessed or the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
  Finding forgiveness is a very important part of my recovery. The years of bad seeds that was planted has become a large field full of lies. Pain is found there. Some abandonment. Things that others know more about what was wrong with me then I would see for myself. Why, because its like this. The self-centered part of being a addict created in me this ego that justified itself. In doing only planted more bad seeds. Every day I was" doing what I had I right to do", I told myself  I was a good person not seeing the world in flams all around me.
   My ego was out of control. Today I admit I am powerless over the affects of drugs and alcohol, and self- centers behavior --- my life is unmanageable.
  With that the field of bad things. Its starting to become a place that myself and even others likes to be. So the unmanageable part moves me to the need of Repentants. So this path move forward.